Hey! :) Dara. Bayside '13. Inhabiting the NYC. Sixteen years old at the moment. Just the oddball in the crowd. I'm willing to be your friend. :) My life's a revolution. My heart beats for Jesus Christ.♥
Philippians 1:21 "For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain."
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Self examination?
I’m full of shame. A person would only get frustrated if all the blame is stacked on them all the time. As a kid, wouldn’t you get tired if your parents keep scolding you? In these last hours, I dedicated myself to clean up the house, vacuum the place, take out the trash, and straighten everything out. And what do I get? My parents come home to me to yell at me. I’m nothing but a worthless daughter.
I ran into some terrible twitter accounts.
I see these usernames that say “notsomightygod,” “godisnotreal,” etc. and so forth. I just wonder….why on earth are they creating twitter account, making tweets & retweets, spending time, effort, and energy hating on God? I must say, not only spiritually speaking, but also physically speaking; wow….they seriously don’t have lives. Their hearts are evidently dark, cold, and gloomy.
Matthew 12:34 “You brood of vipers, how can you who are evil say anything good? For out of the overflow of the heart the mouth speaks.”
They’re not filled with any love or light. If there’s any “love” at all, it’s the love for evil and what opposes to God. I understand that there are many atheists out there, but why are these atheists spending too much time on belittling God on their pitiful twitter accounts? Guess they just want to promote their ideas and spread the hate, eh? As a Christian, it saddens me and makes me frown…not because they somehow “mock” and “belittle” God. No one can actually do that, no matter what words come out of their mouths.
Galatians 6:7 “Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows.”
Even when people think they still have the strength, nerves, and breath to “mock” God in any way, it doesn’t make a difference to the existence and sovereignty of Yahweh. People may say this or that, but they’re only wasting their time and digging themselves deeper into the trap of their own tongue. God is HOLY. God is true. God is Mighty. God is a l i v e! No matter what any mere human being says, God’s glory shines, forever and always. No mere man’s words has the power to change that.
So it’s not their words that sadden me. I’ve faced several people in my life, who laugh in my face and joke about my God. Yes, this is my persecution and I love it. Maybe in the past, I didn’t react the right way and took it to heart. But at least I know now, that whatever happens to me because of Jesus’ name, I am blessed. Furthermore, it’s not their foolish [re]tweets that burden me. What breaks my heart, are the facts that their hearts are so far from God, their world is so dark, and their insights have become to narrow, not to see the truth plainly presented to them. Every time…every time, I see people like this, all I can ever do is pray for them. We can never go wrong, with the hands of God. He works precisely, never wrong in His timing. He knows omnisciently, every person and everything that happens to them. More importantly, in everything He sees, knows, and works with….He cares and loves. So hopefully, before the time runs short on this earth, these people on twitter will change their minds about the One who they foolishly talk against.
I surrendered
I stayed home today. I was too overwhelmed, plus that fever really hindered me. Hopefully, missing school today won’t kill me for next week. As far as I know…I got 4 essays to do by the end of this weekend, plus another essay by next Friday. I cannot wait until winter “break.” But even then, it’s not really much of a break if the teachers will pour an avalanche of homework on me. *sigh* Well, this is the beautiful life. The ironic part is, I’m not saying that with sarcasm. No matter what you face, you still have got to find the beauty in life. And the beauty is the fact that God woke you up to another day and that He is always in control. It’s in the hands of God that I find my eternal, endless hope. Thank you Jesus Christ. ♥
What agony.
Honestly, studying and reading the Bible is so much more interesting for me, than studying for anything in school. It’s the end of May and June’s coming up. It’s that nerve racking time of year again. Despite the fact that it’s the end of the school year, we have to face all these finals and regents exams and hit the books before we ever get to have fun in the sun. What a living nightmare. Last year was a miracle that I passed everything. I study my hardest and just keep praying to God that I’ll make it through. I hope I can achieve the same thing this year and pass everything again. I cringe at all my past notes and look at the review books in disgust. I barely remember anything. From this moment on, I have to put time daily, to study for Trig and Chem. But I’ll be literally celebrating by the time it’s June 28. Hanging in there…just a little longer….we can all do this.
I’m the kind of person who will keep laughing..
There will be a joke or a funny moment. If it’s ridiculously hilarious, I’ll be the last one to laugh. Even if it’s been weeks or even months, it will pop in my mind. And if everyone got over it, I will still be the one to laugh. I laugh….a lot. I even have a contagious laugh, which gets everyone laughing. I laugh at the most unnecessary times. It hasn’t happened until this year, when some of my friends started asking if I’m on something, as if I would ever take anything. -_- Then I tell them, “Sure, I’m on laughing gas.” I would actually love to experience laughing gas, but I wouldn’t want to go to the dentist for it. People say I could die of laughter. I’d tell them, “That’s actually a nice way to die, because you’d die happy.”
Oh the funny awkward moment…
So my friends and I got off our bus stop near Main Street. We stood with our umbrellas in the pouring rain, still talking. Our topic ended up reminding me of a song called, “East to West” by Casting Crowns. None of them heard of the song, so I decided to sing the first line of the chorus. “Jesus can you show me just how far the east is from the west…” A random stranger with his hood on his head stopped and looked at me. I stopped within a split second, realizing the awkwardness of the moment. He said, “Yeah, you sing good,” then walks off. “What the heck?” I said, and everyone starts laughing. “Yeah, that was awkward,” said Mabel. “I thought he was going to give you money,” said Vivian. HAHA! That was seriously funny. XD
Dude, I feel like I’m in fruit paradise, like Fruitopia. LOLOLOL. Get it, get it? Utopia and fruits; an ideal society filled with fruits. :D Yes, I know I’m corny. :( Since last summer, my dad has always been imposing me to keep eating fruits, fruits, fruits. Anyway, I feel accomplished and achieved. I’ve been eating healthier lately. :’) *sigh* Pealing those kiwis were a pain. They kept slipping out of my hands. D: Haha yeah, those are just my stuffed hedgehogs in the background on my laptop. Hope you guys are having a lovely Friday night. I know I am. ^.^
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I haven’t been in school for two days. The news hits me like roadkill, finding out I have a Trig test tomorrow. Why does this happen to me? I’m already failing Trig. :’(
I’m gonna spoil my dinner.
I’m going to eat ice cream now before dinner. :3 Ahh yes, this is how I’d like to enjoy my Friday night. ^.^
Almost the end of the year.
^^ Haha, stating the obvious from that title. There are two events I’m looking forward to. :) One of them is the concert next Wednesday, May 18 at the NYU. I’m kind of pumped, probably because we’ll be in the city the whole day, instead of being captive behind the prison bars of school. Haha, okay I sounded really pessimistic about school there. In the end, I’m glad I don’t have a solo, because the pressure isn’t on me. I’ve been so laid back in my solo vocal training class for the past two weeks. Yes, honest shame goes on me, because I still didn’t practice for the class song, “Lift Thine Eyes.” But I will definitely know the song by this weekend. Am I really going to bring bland, plain, typical Doritos there? I’m still debating in my head. I might bring some better food. I’m so glad both my parents are available to come. I’m a little disappointed that it might rain on that day. I’m praying for a sunny day! Moreover, the second thing I’m excited for is Jesus Day, three Wednesdays from now, June 1st. Whoot! It’s an event at my school, hosted by the Bayside Seeker’s Christian Club. This is the first time I’m experiencing Jesus Day, so I can’t say much about it. But I’m sure it’s going to be awesome if it’s for the Lord. It’s just the day, where students gather for Jesus Christ and worship Him. Obviously, just like any other overworked, tired student out there, I am looking forward to summer vacation. It seems nice to drop all the books and be free, after a long year of school. Long. 10 months. Well, it will be 10 months in a few weeks. I still have to face all my finals exams and Regents. Alas, I have to study hard for my weakest subjects, Trig and Chem. Yuck. :/ I plan to go to those Saturday Regents Prep classes, because that’s how helpless I am. I pray to God that I can pass all these things like last year. I can’t do it alone. That’s why I need God. I have to study hard, because these last few weeks will fly by. It’s good to have faith the size of a mustard seed. But faith without work is dead. I have to put the effort. I will fight the good fight. I will work hard. I will boldly claim it in the name of Jesus Christ.
1 Corinthians 9:26-27 “So I do not run like someone who doesn’t run toward the finish line. I do not fight like a boxer who hits nothing but air. No, I train my body and bring it under control. Then after I have preached to others, I myself will not break the rules and fail to win the prize.”
1 Timothy 6:12 “Fight the good fight along with all other believers. Take hold of eternal life. You were chosen for it when you openly told others what you believe. Many witnesses heard you.”
Philippians 4:13 “I can do all this through Him who gives me strength.”
